March 03 2006, I left my home country. This was the day, when I had to say good bye to not only my friends and family but also to my homeland, where I grew up and lived 19 years of my life. It was a very emotional moment for me.
I can remember the day in every detail. I woke up very early that morning. My cousin came to see me. I could not talk to her. My voice could not reach my throat, everything I had to say, came out from my eyes. I started crying. She was trying to make me calm down but I could not hold my tears.
You cannot cry for long. So, we started talking and packing stuff for the departure. My mom cooked some of my favorite dishes for lunch. The whole family had our lunch together. Usually we have some table talk over lunch, but that day nobody seems to incline to talk. Everybody was sad for upcoming departure. I tried to tell some jokes. They laughed at those. But I could clearly see their tears underneath all the laughs.
After launch my friends came to say hello and may be goodbye. They took me on a walk to the streets I have walked thousands of time. But it was different that day. I realized, I won’t be walking along these streets anymore. My familiar street seems very new. I was walking down it as if I were a little girl, who just learned to walk. All of a sudden I sat down in the middle of the street and asked them to give me a moment alone. I wanted to say goodbye to the street, I grew up. The cars were honking at me. So, I had to cut it short. We came back home. My friends were trying to make me laugh. The thought, that I won’t be able to see them every now and then, filled my eyes with tears.
At the evening I started to get ready for the twenty eight hour journey. My sister was helping me. I always forget things while traveling. She was double checking everything that I should take. Oh! God, how can I do without her? But, I had finished all my tears for the day. I couldn’t cry. All my emotions, was cutting thorough my heart, as sharp knives. I couldn’t say a word. Instead, I hugged her tight. I was trying to say her goodbye with my hugs. It was so hard to speak. I didn’t know when I am going to see her again.
My uncle came to take me to the airport. He put very laud rock n roll music in the car to cheer me up. At, that time I took a promise to myself that I won’t cry anymore. If this was the last time, seeing the people I love and care, I wanted them to see my happy face. It seemed the hardest promise. I said goodbye to my family and friends, who came to see me off, with a fake smile on my face.
I checked in, and finished all the security measure. The air hostess greeted me on board. I knew, as soon as the plane leaves the runway my life will change for ever. It was very dark at night. I could not see anything outside from the tiny airplane window. The pilot announced the departure and turned off all the lights inside. I was so eager to see my homeland one last time in the dim light of the runway. I said Good bye to my country and suddenly I realized I had failed to keep my promise.
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