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March 03 2006, I left my home country. This was the day, when I had to say good bye to not only my friends and family but also to my homeland, where I grew up and lived 19 years of my life. It was a very emotional moment for me. I can remember the day in every detail. I woke up very early that morning. My cousin came to see me. I could not talk to her. My voice could not reach my throat, everything I had to say, came out from my eyes. I started crying. She was trying to make me calm down but I could not hold my tears. You cannot cry for long. So, we started talking and packing stuff for the departure. My mom cooked some of my favorite dishes for lunch. The whole family had our lunch together. Usually we have some table talk over lunch, but that day nobody seems to incline to talk. Everybody was sad for upcoming departure. I tried to tell some jokes. They laughed at those. But I could clearly see their tears underneath all the laughs. After launch my friends came to say hello and may be